If I’m not fine, or if I am, I’ll tell you. I’ll tell you how I feel. I’ll tell you if I’m jealous, or unsatisfied. I’ll tell you if I don’t like you or if I love you. But, if I don’t tell you, that just means I care about you and I know you care about me too. I know that if I tell you I’m sad, you’ll be unhappy too. So if keeping my emotions away will make you not worry or be unhappy for me, so be it.
watching step brothers, eating ramen & drinking sprite. todays a chill tuesday.
Have you ever felt like you couldn’t handle reality anymore that you go to a certain place to isolate yourself from this world? All the bullshit keep building up and one point, you snapped. You try to hold in the tears but those tears were overpowering you that it flowed right down your cheeks. You would put your head down and think about everything that went wrong, and what could’ve happened. If only others felt exactly the way you feel…
apparently its my fault. its my fault that my dad cant go to work today because he’s trying to find a new school for me to go to. its my fault that my mom cries herself to sleep every night just cause she’s worried about me. it’s my fault that my family’s falling apart because i still have a boyfriend. its my fault that my boyfriend has to worry too much about me. its my fault that my parents think everything i say is a lie. its my fault that i make my family sad. im selfish and stupid, everything is all my fault.
No matter where I’m at or what time of day it is I don’t have a full focus on my homework I wish I can have. I end up looking at it thinking “I hate homework….” then I end up thinking about other things, wanting to do other things other than homework, and saying “Fuck it, I don’t want to do this.” I just want to get it over with but it’s just whatever now. I hardly do my homework anymore.
Terence (aka Lei McQueen) - Postcards
6 months & 28 days :)
awee thanks anon, but i think u should also take ur own advice too. you dont need to be as skinny as me, or even have a boyfriend as long as you are happy. ‘You are beautiful stop putting yourself down’ Sincerely, thuy :)
I always compare myself to someone I think is cuter, smarter, and more talented than me. Whenever I do, I feel like shit. Especially when I finally gain enough confidence in myself, then all of a sudden I come across someone else that’s just perfect at everything. Someone that I wish I could be. Someone that’s completely flawless. Someone that everyone envies. Then there’s me; just a regular person that’s not special at all.
birthday.. anniversary.. valentines… & i only got $5 loll
